I don’t want to get melodramatic about it, but sometimes I was paralyzed with terror. I ask myself why I didn’t just run away from this psychopath, especially when he began to talk funny and act strange. Why didn’t I get out when I had a chance? Well, things are never as simple and as easy as one thinks. There are always complications. Things get in the way from rational behavior. For most parts, the human creature can be described as irrational. Rational choice theory would describe human behavior as basically rational and that people calculate the benefits and costs of any behavior before acting out that behavior. Well, I would have to say bullshit. Many times people don’t do the rational thing. They do exactly the opposite of rational. My sticking around with Rocky Duabbe was an example of irrational behavior. I knew in the depths of my soul that Rocky was no good. It was intuition or something thattold me. 

Giant Mammal 012406

Future, present, and past
on the tip of my stick,
no doubt about it.

This way, spitting blood,
I enter your room empty handed,
but my head is covered by your bliss.

Barefoot in my coming and my going,
I vanish with your dreams in my pocket,
crushing the lizard with my heel.

Giant Mammal 92F (discovered under the aortic froth)

Giant Mammal 92F (discovered under the aortic froth)

I am so sick of your napkin miracles,
to all the rest be damned,
your spirituality and dementia.

They don’t pay my bills or the rent,
pointed, black, and lifeless,
your aerial rotating house rises with the steam’s hiss.

It was a red letter dog
that delivered my love to you,
damn nice of him to work so cheaply.

Giant Mammal 1154WSD

Giant Mammal 1154WSD


Totally flying beneath the vapors
I rotate wanting knives about the dream
Tighten up your wig! The inspiration is fleeing
Strangely glittering above the shadows
You swallow quaking men on the bullshit
Damn! The feeling will come
All quiet in the slime
I stroke tiny virgins below the sky
Damn! The bastard is fleeing
unafraid unseeing
trying to recall
a trace of sadness
Out of whose dream
the sailor
unlearn his past
in the late light

Giant Mammal 1147

Giant Mammal 1147

Totally grotesque behind the rain
We taste dull knives about the flowers
Alass! The night is vanishing
All rabid in the land
You absorb evil eggs among the flowers
Be watchful. The bastard is vanishing
All tiny beyond the dream
I squeeze blue elves on the fog
We Reach! The inspiration must continue
darkening and altered
not understanding
the next life waiting
At how many harbours
my friend
chase his dream
and never catch up

Giant Mammal 12X12

Giant Mammal 12X12

You are a god with a torpedo,
salvaged from the war,
between the Texans and the Followers of L.

The chronicled experiences of the nuclear family,
I think it was the combination of duct tape and Browning shotguns
that struck a chord with society.

As the bulldozers tore down your walls,
everybody is in shadow now,
I would have to pull out the book and show you.

Having to walk down those marble stairs forever,
and putting up with the risk of being misunderstood,
putting it out there.

Giant Mammal 704X99997TRX

Giant Mammal 704X99997TRX

Somehow you do something different,
it was a bad gateway,
against you a heinous crime.

Giving your purple a name,
prostitution and your indifference,
paying for your fall.

Open your mouth and swallow,
taking it all in,
then yeah, she, ummm.

Giant Mammal 704 (Extinct)

Giant Mammal 704 (Extinct)

Somehow the girl caught on fire,
replaced by the elevated highway,
I left you for that star-crossed lover.

America went missing,
spraying your hairs silver,
buried with your symbolic politics.http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif

Another gesture
as your plastic life reaches the inevitable
demise.

Giant Mammal 703

Giant Mammal 703

Slide this line here, over there,
title, comma, prefix, slash,
Know what I’m wondering?

Giant Mammal 702

Giant Mammal 702

You are selling your flowers again,
on the streets of Marion Illinois,
they are tearing it all down.

It has been too long,
concertina wire,
making the doves cry.

Your face is out of focus,
the complete determination of your alter ego,
you smell like flowers.

Bleaker’s Repository

Bleaker’s Repository

Infected with purpose
Out of the flesh world
Into the womb of beginning
Taking away your crutch
Forcing your mind
Upon you like a tiger
Vengeful with claws
Knowing both darkness and truth
Under the impetus of love
Beyond your pile of sticks
They do not add up
To this final purpose
This calling of all wills
Aligned with the universe
Perched at the tip
Waiting for the falling over
The flood of unreason
Bored through with the wind
Three generations of them
Still the light pours through
Upon Bleaker’s lowly place

Wanted Death

Wanted Death

Maybe he wanted death
Tried so hard to find it
Looked in a pill bottle

Slit wrists spilling so red
With practice and over
Molded details in mind

Victim

Victim

We are in the same boat.
Little comfort, while sinking.
Still, the captain repeats the refrain.
His words fall, on silent ears.
No one wants to consider.
Consequences, sinking deeper.
Guardians of the darkness.
Malicious unclear future.

Los Muertos

Los Muertos

The corruption of the weak
Food for the idols
Death of the voiceless
Children of the broken man
Raised up from the ashes
Tears no longer shed
Clenched fists rising higher
Angry cries of the masses
Defined by complications
Distorted faces in the windows
Watching the death parade
Those who catch the babbles
Sweet release and escape

Jealous Punk

Jealous Punk

Empty your heart of its mortal dream
To be like the gods in all glory
Infinite power and blessed grace
Rise above the mundane
Embrace the sacred and holy
Your image illuminating my mind

The slumber of darkness waits
Standing alone as in the beginning
Bringing the flame of divinity
Becoming like God, closing the gap
Removing all weakness from the flock


Darkly placed upon my eyelids
Poor, tired, wandering fool
Sold for a fleeting chance
My words sent forth
To reap what they have sown
Gather up the fruits of time

Mighty walls stand before me
Raised up by my free will
Testaments to my stubbornness
Victims to my crimes
Like fallen tombstone left to decay
Forgotten souls of the living

Recognize the devils that surround you
Remember how they tormented
Betrayed by your recollection
Justified by self-righteous fever
Your mind a lethal weapon

Its all about survival and space
Sending it all back around
A soulless, jealous punk
Rules made to be broken
An all together different game

Me up on the highway
Sure I’m out there
Standing there like Satan
The biggest dog on the street
Hiding in the bottomless pit

Ascending to Heaven on an Eagle

Ascending to Heaven on an Eagle

I shall not be too forward
Advancing tales spun in moonlight
Fabulous secrets of nature
Avoiding all absurdities
Like Jack avoids the doctor

We consider the quality
Wares that the salesman brings
Fanfares and banners held on poles
While the children dance
Soldiers for the war

Breathe new life into your madness
Wave to the dregs as they pass
Spare not their rank or abilities
Heathens and idolaters have spoken
Experience teaching us new lessons

Who trouble not themselves
Occasion to observe
Ignorance by the cruelty
Most vile and atonable creature
Exceeds our efforts and wholly depends

With thunder and lightning
Where comes the power
Done by wicked and diabolical
Souls desirous of communion
Dispose their good Angels

Aim only for the practice
To pretend and to honor
By heaps of stones and statues
Assemblies of the people
Instruction of the truth

A Loan of Terror

A Loan of Terror

Lend me your terror,
a refuge you could not share.
You are strangled by
the feeling. A new
form of ugliness, paired with
monster. Your master
illusion calling
your name. With a mask, I speak
the truth for those who
do not listen. To
care so much is a weakness.
Happy ending come.

A Renaissance Angel

A Renaissance Angel

Your serene ignorance
Of a certain beauty
Is like the hate of a dog
A barking dog who recruits
Followers to a crusty band
Hearts beating wildly
They write your boneheaded wisdom in books
They move their lips a s they read
Ignorant to your perpetrations
Blue lips
Words after words
A drug infused rant
Of idiocy
Never finding the meaning
It escapes you
Dogged persistence of meaningless
Golden curls of tobacco
As you stand against the wall
Your back to the crowd
You can’t face your accusers
A gracias move toward the door
The filtering of light
To the point of madness
It is your madness
And you want to share it
She was mute
With the fierce look of the devil
Melting down to the core
Two dimensional questions
A careful distortion

The Yield of darkness

The Yield of darkness

In the tomb
I see her
Better than the world
Better than god
The bone of my flesh
The terrible look
A trapped animal
Trapped in the walls of anguish
Deeper into the night
The carnal hose of the soul
Shaking itself free
Of the bonds of dharma
We lived in black dreams
Made of stitches we could not find
Sucking us in
Making everything an underworld
With fists of laughter
Revolving around phantom satellites
As the beast looks into us
Doubled barreled
In barbed plumes
An insatiable itch
Cool as chaos

It changed the whole

It changed the whole

I.
I looked up
The first gulp
Stopped by the moment
Walking into the glimpse
Page after page of realization
You have been living with a lie
A stone around your neck
Dragging you down
Your legs are the roots of trees
Planted in the soil of terror
A soul that you never had the taste for
Words are meaningless to the axe
Let us talk about your crazy eyes
Too long in the branches
Close to the boundary
The most enchanting

II.
The human spore
Of value
Of dignity
Of light
The cold fabric of life
A dirty mouth
Choking and hissing tongue
Marked by the loss
A forlorn island
Accepting the eviction
The odious sense of sacrifice
Screwed in another direction
Trampled upon
A great big hole
We fall into
And are reduced to ashes
The soil of complete
Layer upon layer
Saluted relics
To have being
Standing in a trance
A strange moving substance
The old dream

III.
Vague at the edges
A peculiar metamorphosis
Crumbling on my hands
Dying comfortably
Deserted them
Through the rites
An absolute stranger
Moving on to new battles
As the world moves
Slightly bent at an angle
That lets only a fraction in
Chewed alive and digested
As flesh and blood
Reshaped by the spirit
Penetrated through, endowed
Everything out of place
The deeper I burrow into the evolution
Like a pushed worm
A warm human pressure
Like a tornado
With big blue eyes

IV.
I am desolate
Most horrible anguish
Like a maniac
Through a hole
Incredible and monstrous
It seems so natural
To be howling inside
The wolf within
Chewing on the carcass
It totters and careens
I am in the dream once again
Pleasurable and maddening
Muttering to myself
Now till doomsday
Mangled and torn apart
Kill them all
The stars shine
And everybody suffers
Twisted and formed by human hands
We wander forlorn and desperate
Seeking the body
Drifting with the current
Born out of a wound
A ghost in their midst
In the void